Pronounced dead.

There's a limit to everything.

So tomorrow is a sunday, just how many sundays' have i wasted these holidays. I've been out the whole week. Thinking back, i feel kinda guilty for not attending tuition regularly, not spending enough time with my family, not keeping myself organised, spending too much money, not sitting down and complete any assignments. I wanna feel good, not having to worry about anything but it seems like i didn't even try to make anything better. Just what's the problem with me. I think i might need some help, please?

Yesterday, we went to the library to study, it wasn't constructive to me but it was of some help anyway since yongkee answered my questions. Ended up camwhoring with amanda and peiling, it was totally retarded, so many people looking but who cares, we're stressed! ( Click their names for photos (: )

I wanna pick up a book, a book that is self-motivational. Something that makes me realise how bad a state i am in now. I wanna go on reading it for hours until daybreak, then i'll take a break. Perhaps then i wouldn't let my mind run wild, thinking of the littlest, and most insignificant thing that happened to me. I hate the feeling of being crazeeeee. Its like being a madwoman, blowing her head over little things that nobody would ever take notice of, making a moutain out of a molehill. At the same time, maybe i could use this book for the ERP assignment? I'm going to be a good girl and mug hard! B-)

Its holiday,
I wanna reminice the past,
to go back where we started off this journey,
i need some of my old friends please?

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I need an egg to rub the bum on my head!

I feel like reciting a story, a story i heard in a hongkong drama just now;

HAPPY HARI RAYA HAJI! :D

I went town with mamma to get fronda's present. Isn't it nice to have a maid to see you grow from a kid till what you are now? Its coooool to think of. If i ever had such a maid, i'll love her, like a lot, like how much pei loves her maid. So yah, helped her made a 'booklet' for fronda, its nice tho, cause i make one! HAHAHAHH. Aww, you know what the worst thing is today? I get to experience the pain of not buying the things that you rlly want when you had the money but couldnt spent. URGH, its like a thousand arrows piercing thru your heart cause you'lll get prepared that when you get your ass back there, the item is gone!!

Christmas is around the corner, everybody's getting ready for it, buying gifts, sending cards and what not. And, i cant do anything, cause... ( I know im getting a little whiny but just read on) Daddy doesn't celebrate x'mas which equals to no christmas allowance, cause i'm danm broke myself to afford anything, cause i'm still considering if i should start sending x'mas greetign cards this year and the list goes on.

I'm embarking on a new journey,
one that makes me feel better,
one that makes me a better person.
















Recently:
1) Went to smelly's house
2) Ate speg that her maid cooked
3) Painted and erased nail polish
4) Gossip sessions
5) Thought about our future
6) Tuition sessions
7) Homework-ing
8) Outings
9) Made S.B.R.C. shirt
10) Talked to an old friend

I've always been thinking, thinking about what we're going to be like after o levels, everyone going seperate ways doing their own stuff, picking up new interest. I want to dream of a heart warming scene, when everyone's got married and have their children. How cool is that. And maybe then we'll catch up about all the ups and downs they had with their other half. Bitching about their children's puppy loves. Hopefully, when our hair is white, we still could go shopping together like how i saw those grannies in the shopping malls. But in the end, their just dreams and wishes. We'll never know what's in stored for us, will we?

I feel all worned out.
I felt like a thousand things are on my mind,
flashing through like a shooting star,
not leaving me a chance to breathe and take another look.
I wanna confide in someone but do you even hear me talking to you?

Its been a busy week and a packed schedule lately. Everybody's leaving, busy with their own stuffs. Pei's got an interview for job, kang's gone overseas and i've no idea if she's back, lou's gone off to m'sia too, wee's busy with her own stuff, ive's in aussie and everything. Awwww, looks like the net time S.R.B.C's outing is not goin to be anytime soon. D: Meanwhile, i aspire to finish some assignments and cancel it off my list to lighten my burden, just like how niaoniao finished her geog as said on her blog.

Psst, i saw this damn bag i loved in the net, got niaoniao! Omg, wee's going to laugh if she knows about it. And, being random. I had a nightmare last night, i dreamt about how traumatised i was upon seeing that totally naked sick in the mind flasher cum peeper cum whatv. Its not goin to be a nightmare anymore if i ever see him again. I'll just laugh it off, srsly, hopefully.

I'm goin to talk to yongkee now and here you go:-
BakaTensai Isolation policy? says:
credits put me for persuading you to revive your blog

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